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Hello sistas!
Bringing up the rear tonight. I am using my new computer for the first time. Oh, so many changes and so many new things to learn and get used to. This computer has Windows 10, so that's new. And I have to transfer everything over from my old computer, but first I have to find my software (it's in the garage) and install the programs, and then do the transfer. Ugh. I'll get it done eventually. Tonight I have the internet working, and that's enough. (Plus my secret spreadsheet with all my passwords is on my old computer, so I'm having problems remembering passwords, etc. It's hell to get old.)
Well, my day is not really going all that well. My youngest daughter, Christie, is having some kind of a crisis/meltdown this weekend. Y'all remember that she's bipolar. I knew this was coming. She hasn't been sleeping for the past couple of weeks. That means she's in that manic cycle, and that always precipitates a crisis. Carrie and I stopped in to see her at Hobby Lobby yesterday afternoon and she started crying at work. Uh oh. Big red flag. So we started early this morning texting her, urging her to bring the boys and come over for the day. No response. Finally Carrie went over there and Chris was just very, very distraught. Crying, unable to sit still, agitated, etc. So Carrie gathered up the boys and brought them here. I guess they're here for the night.
Anyway, I'm always afraid that Chris will do something stupid when she gets like this. I've already been through several suicide attempts with her, but none for the past 10 years. Still, the fear that she will try again never leaves. So I went over to see her, and while she would allow me to sit beside her on the couch and hold her, she wouldn't open up to me. Just wouldn't say a word. Cried, of course. But wouldn't talk. I don't know. She wouldn't say much to Carrie either. Then Mike came home and I left. So I don't know what is going on.
I don't know where the hell everyone is going to sleep here tonight.
I did manage to have a couple of hours of gardening time this morning, which was nice. I had plans to do much more today, but none of that happened. I don't know why I ever think I'm going to be able to do what I want when I want. It never happens.
I am not handling all the stress well and I ate 2 big cookies tonight.
Budder is calling me. I'd better go. Love you all!
Vickie
I just read this. I am so very sorry on the loss of your beloved SIL. You were so thoughtful to have your brother send you a video of her breathing so he could alert the the kids in time for them to be there when she passed. May she rest in heavenly peace. She is now healed in Heaven and is free of pain.
To you, her husband and the rest of the family, I send my deepest regrets. I am so very sorry for your loss. My prayers and thoughts are with you. God bless you all.
Yvonne, sorry I forgot you. I'll ditto what Connie says ... don't run out and buy all new clothes right away. And keep one piece of the old to remember what it was like. Congrats on the weight loss.
Ladies,
Thank you all so much for your kind words. We are going through the motions so that we can help my brother get through this...I was thinking about how long I have known my SIL and realized that I have known her my entire life. She was born in 54 and I was born in 55. Her mom and my mom were friends and so we crawled around in the floor together and learned how to play hopscotch, jump rope, and red rover together. When we were young girls and she told me she loved my brother and was going to marry him, I thought she was nuts. When they were married, I would go hang out with her while my brother worked in the oil fields. I was with her when she gave birth to their first child and when she had the second one, I was her nurse. Tomorrow we have visitation at the funeral home. My brother called me and said he didn't think he could do this and I said you will do this and I will hold your hand through the entire thing. He said, promise you won't leave me because I cannot talk without crying so you talk for me...I said, like when we were kids and you were shy and he said yes. damn my heart breaks for him.
That's why we rent too. Our dishwasher has been leaking lately. The apartment maintenance guys have "fixed" it twice ... and it still leaks. We'll give them another call on Monday. But at least they do something. Gary's hoping for a new one.
Hi Linda and my OFF family:
How could I forget you were going on a cruise, Linda? I hope you had a good time. For some reason, I thought you couldn't fly. Maybe that was in the past.
I don't think I would do silk scarf painting. I would have problems giving those away and it's nothing that I would keep. But it sounds interesting, Carla. I agree with you, Linda, on the ceramics. I loved doing them but had noone left to give them to. I made some really nice pieces, too. And now that my hands shake so badly, it's hard to do the fine lines.
Gary and I went to see "The Boss" with Melissa McCarthy. Funny but very raunchy. We enjoyed it. It's R rated for a reason. It didn't get great reviews but then it doesn't have to be an Oscar winning movie to be enjoyable. Then Gary had to get some tax forms to finish up his Indiana taxes. Now we're home, not doing much. I'm watching the ballgame (White Sox vs. Tampa Bay Rays); Gary's playing around on his phone. No big plans for tonight.
Judy, you're a hoot about Rick and the cars. Yeah, he ought to do your car first. We're having nice weather here too ... I wore capris too and it felt so good.
Trish, I hope you can get through your depression. I know how tough it can be.
Connie, hope your walk was nice. I'm waiting til Monday to get back to the Y.
Vickie, don't know if you posted, but saw you got a computer last night. Hope it works for you. I know you have some free time now with Carrie back to care for Caralee.
Don't remember who else posted, so if I missed you, I'm sorry.
Have a good day.
Hi Connie,
I'm dealing with a ton of depression things, plus the health issues. Getting out, in the sunshine at the games sure did help.
I forgot to mention that Colleen's trip to PA was a big secret, so I couldn't tell my family back home. She's surprising them tonight at my sis-in-law, Kathy's.
I will be okay. I'm changing churches, dropped a friend who was upset with me for dropping out of the Relay for Life. She didn't care that I'm struggling with depression and chronic pain. I don't need selfish friends.
I will call soon.
Hugs
Albert Schweitzer
Hey Trish....I have been very worried about you. I just feel you are struggling right now. I am sure it has something to do with the possible move but not completely. Is there something going on with your health? Is it just the nasty blue funk? I am not being nosey, I am concerned. Call be anytime if talking would help!
I am so glad you got out for some vitamin D!!! Isn't being outdoors again just wonderful!!! Just getting out of all those winter clothes makes us feel better!! I could sit outside all day!!
It was nice that you got to see Izzy at her soccer game. I am sure she did great!! As the season goes on they just get better and better. I am glad she is into sports too!!
Gracie has been playing soccer for few years now. She is lucky because her mom, my daughter, Jamie, and my DIL, Jamie's wife, Megan are the soccer coaches. They do a lot of practicing together and with there other grandpa and uncle too. This is a huge soccer family...and many other sports too!! I am so hoping to get down there for a visit soon!! I love going to her games too!! Jamie is good at making videos of Gracie's games. She does it for the team but also so I can see how she is playing. I really love that!!!
Lincoln sounds like a real sports nut too. Like you said he sure can run!! It is so important to be with others and learn new things!! Good for you, Lincoln!!!
How old is Frankie now? I bet he will be out there playing t-ball and other things before you know it!!
Have a good rest of the evening!!
Love to you and many hugs too....connie d
Connie that's why we rent! My cousin got it for us and his handy man came and put it in for me! I just had to clean up the cupboard!!! I ?? renting!!!!
